t-2 its nice to be in here before 11p. jonathan had a really short nap today (and it came early - he was up by 1230p) so by the time we headed upstairs to get ready for bed, the lil guy was READY. went down without a fight - he ususally doesnt but lately, if he still has energy, he wants to play. elliot has been a little more gassy in the evening lately but thxfully, not as much as jonathan did (thx goodness!). its caused him to be a little irritable before bed but we think its actually b/c his nose is stuffy. poor guy. not getting much sleep on saturday night and having to travel so much on sunday finally caught up to jenny and i these last 2 nights. we've been easily frustrated and irritable at times (sometimes towards each other!) and i think we just need a nice little break. i havent taken any vacation really since elliot came (and that didnt really count as "vacation" if you know what i mean - and even then it was only 3-4 days off work) so i think i need to start takin some more 3 day weekends. i also realized today as i was going to the dentist (2 days in a row of xrays - i cracked a tooth on something i ate recently) that i dont have much time to myself these days. i cant play golf right now (which usually lets me daydream while i'm playing), i dont journal much anymore (i usually do in the mornings but elliot is my alarm clock now - anywhere from 5-630a and so i dont feel like writing.. no, actually, i dont even THINK about writing at those times) and by the time all is done with feeding/burping, i gotta get ready for work. ...any hobbies i had before are basically gone by the wayside b/c most waking moments are taking care of the kids and tending to their needs. heck, as i was driving, i was actually able to listen to music that *I* like listening to (usually its something for jonathan or its not even on b/c we're busy chatting with him or with each other about whatever it is that we need to take care of and talk about). since i cant play golf anymore - and as a result, my mind isnt really occupied with much else but wife and kids these days - i really do need to start finding something else to do on my own on some weekend mornings or afternoons to let me be me - and put down my "father" cap. i got so used to having my own time after not having kids and just being with jenny for 10+ years (8+ being married) and then within a matter of a year or so, we doubled from 2 to 4! |